4 AM confession

Ah its 3.51 AM in the morning

How im wondering I should be sleeping right now, but im wide awake
What am I doing actually?
One minute passed that fast when I am thinking
3.52 AM hmmm

I wanna see my families…
Its not that I missed them, but its just really comforting to know they are well when I sucked
3.54 AM now

I reaally got a bad feeling about the future …
Not in the far future, but near future
With every breath I take bring my closer to it
3.57 AM in the morning

Alone sucks right? I asked to myself this question this time
But I have people besides me, why they do not seems as a friend at all
Don't they see me as one?
3.59 AM in the morning

Its one minute closer to what I've been waiting for
What is it actually that I have been waiting for?
finally its 4 AM

How I wish something big happening this time, but nothing happened…
My hand's shaken, my mind's broken
Now I know how it feels to be played tricks by your own mind…